I Want To Suck The Life Out Of You

Anyone associated with a narcissist knows that you stay emotionally and physically drained. They are vampires who suck the life out of you. You are stressed, develop eating disorders, you’re too tired to deal with anyone but the narcissist, and anxious and depressed. You may even toy with suicide. You spend your life walking on glass and praying it doesn’t crunch loud enough to cause a rage to develop in the narc.

You’re told you can’t cook, you’re too fat/thin, you dont dress right, you’re too clingy/distant. When things do go right for a week or two and you start to let your guard down, the narcissist hits you below the belt crippling you then goes for your emotional jugular…again. The assaults are never far enough in between to allow you to heal so they keep you sick and weak.

You feel as if you are being smothered by living in a coffin. My narc tells me that I’m around him too much but when I’m not he comes looking for me to suck out whatever energy I might have gathered from being away. I used to check out the lies but I just dont have the energy anymore. I just assume that if it doesnt sound right it isn’t. Confronting does no good anyway and the stupid explanations just leave me scratching my head.

If he cheats, he does. I’ll eventually find out. Women know those things. I’m accused of being possessive and jealous so from now on I’m not telling him how addicted I am to him or anything else. When he starts asking me his insecure questions I’m just going to say “uh-huh” or shake my head. Poison to a narc is when they think their fuel supply is losing interest. I don’t understand how happy-go-lucky, healthy, people can become food for the narc vampires. We are smart, educated, and EMPATHETIC. The e word is what gets us. We feel the raging hunger in the narc and we always think we are enough to fill it but we cannot no matter how much we want to help them. No man or woman is an island. Sometimes I feel so drained I feel as if I’ve almost been bleed to death. Please leave a comment. I’d love to hear from you.

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brendag60

I am a published author on dementia and a survivor of narcissistic abuse. This site is designed to help you identify narcissists and their trademarks and the pitfalls to avoid.

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