I mentioned not long ago about how my narc was supposedly invited to help throw a birthday party for an ex’s friend two hours away and I was not invited. Well, that party was to have happened in March but here it is April and it hasn’t happened. I dont know why, I didnt ask. I was going to contact the ex and find out if indeed I really wasn’t invited or was it because my narc didn’t want me there. I decided not to sound needy or desperate so I didn’t ask her. But he was very rude and clear when he informed me he was going and I wasn’t.
He knows my headlight switch is broken and I can’t go out after dark and that I don’t have any friends here, he plans all his “alone” activites after dark so I can’t check on where he says he goes. However, I did install a GPS tracker on his phone and I record his coordinates for patterns. And yes, it is to see if there are identifiable patterns. I ask myself what has brought me here to this point? God have I become a stalker? I just hate being lied to.
So I became Facebook friends with someone who directs a paranormal TV show. His assistant called me for a story I had shared with him and they want to use it. This entails, however, me flying to New York for the interview. My narc was furious that I would go without him. I had the glee of telling him that he wasn’t invited (hee, hee, hee). It wasn’t pretty but it was worth it. What’s the phrase? “What’s good for the goose is good for the gander.” Normally I wouldn’t ruffle feathers and I know there will be repercussions but each little victory makes me stronger.
My narc is very observant so I don’t think I could ever get away with following him in my car unless I wore a disguise. I dont want to reduce myself to that but i won’t be played a fool either. When he is sleeping I sometimes check his messages and incoming and dialed numbers writing them down also. I hate snooping like this but sometimes a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do. I’ve invested too much time and money into this relationship to be duped but I dont want to live like this either. I need to get away and think about everything which I plan on doing soon. Be blessed. Love and light.